For you, Little one.

I wanted to feel the love I lost years ago

And once again meet my inner childhood

& Wear the white tights with small red hearts

Feel the innocence and excitement

Completely oblivious to the outside world

At the end of my childhood path, I was met with two options, life or death…

I grew up fast, quickly learned the up and downs of life,

I felt the loss life brings for decades

And then felt the painful burn of karma

I watched people I love struggle and drown

Counting my days as lucky but numbered, I had to keep on going

No idea what I was striving for, and no direction to go but up

My dreams and aspirations just out of my reach

One disappointment after another, I smiled despite it

Kept aiming high, but I was shooting low

I had one person in my corner- my mother

She fought long and hard to protect me

But it was her time to go and up she went

Back to heaven where the angels meet again

But before she left, I felt her leave me with something inside

A bit of insight and a seed that was alive

You were given to me after I had given up

I had accepted life, as this is life and then you die

Anything between is just the up and down rollercoaster

Happiness is not a STATE of mind,

Happiness is only fleeting moments just out of your grasp